No More

Sobs wrack my body,
For the first time in...
Forever.
Real, heavy,
Broken
Cries.
It feels like I just
Collapsed,
From the inside out.
Tears stream from my eyes,
Like a river of pain,
Breaking its way out;
Forcing out loud, ugly,
Terrifying
Noises.
My throat is so sore,
It stings;
And it feels like someone is shoving something down it,
The same way
I've been shoving my feelings down.
My walls are breaking,
And I just feel so...
Vulnerable.
I can't stand it.
"I feel so alone,"
I scream.
It hurts too much.
I just want it to stop.
I just want it all to stop...